Denise Tan

My solitude of happiness, sadness, hurt and all emotions. I like pouring emotions into this place. Because nobody reads it but me. And whatever I dont know, will not kill me.

I keep memories;
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I really am.
Tired of all these emotional setbacks.
Its like, nobody even noticed my change in personality.
I used to smile and laugh, without any reason at all.
I loved the feeling of being in a batch, 19 strong.
But did i ever completely put down everything concerning the conflict?
Im sorry, no.

I was the one who got hurt.
And also the one who initiated the reunion.
I cry for my batchmates.
Who cries for me?

I cant seem to remember guides' thinking day the same way anymore.
It may seem like careless words, said without second thought.
But does anyone ever think about its consequences?
Or would a "Oops i was just joking" make things better?
No it wont.
Call me anal or whatever, I really expected alot more warmth for my batch.
Than what's happening nowadays.
My best friend was stolen from me,
I accepted the fact and lived on.
My sisters made wrongful judgements about me,
I wanted death, wanted an escape.
But I didnt, because some ppl held on to me.
I really thought that after that, i wouldnt be dispensable no more.
But I guess Im just, terribly wrong.











Quoted from Robiaatul@blogspot,

Hello. I know I'm stupid to put my love on an idol. But have anyone thought that, loving an idol is so much easier than loving someone who will reject/hurt/make use of your feeling? At least when you love someone who doesn't know you exist, there's no chance he can hurt you like how some jerks does. At least he won't play with your feelings and he can make you happy without knowing that you're happy because of him. Its because he doesn't know you exist. Doesn't know you love him wholeheartedly. Its a very good way to escape from hurt and love this way, isn't it? Well, I think it is. Maybe some people don't agree with me, because they might find it stupid. But, I think this way, is the best way to escape from reality. I'd rather stay in a world that doesn't exist than facing reality that sucks so much. It hurts a lot. Why suffer when you can choose to at least escape from reality.

I agree, sfm.


Im in love with my best friend.
A one-sided love that's been going on for 2 years already.
And I know I will soon give up.
Because its either that, or I continue on with this unrequited love.
And if you ask me to choose between being loved or to love,
I'd rather be loved.

Young saeng may never know my name,
I wont ever hear him calling my name either.
But he'll never hurt me.
Because he doesnt know me.
And for me, thats enough already.